ahhhh

i need to buck up!!!!!!!!!!!!

life's pretty shitty now with pw and no one to spend time with...

gone were the days i spend time outside

gone were the days i played around

gone were the days i thought of you

gone, all gone. faded gradually into the depths of the shadowless bottomless abyss.
but ill keep it, ill harbour hopes for the future, ill think positive, ill cheer up, ill man up, ill be myself.

because im Isaac, and all Isaacs will never give up, never think negative, never say never.(no, i dun like bieber for the record)

meanwhile, enjoy life and absorb experience. i shall be the best person i can be.

放手

我决定放手让你走。

想通了，明白了，了解了。

因为你爱我，才狠心下定决心不爱我。

因为你爱我，才忍心放我走。

因为你爱我，才放心把我放走。

因为你爱我，我爱你。

明了了一切，我尊重你的决定，希望你也可以找到你的幸福。

现在不是我，将来可能是我。命中注定，任天主宰吧。

请你容许我再说一次，也是现在的最后一次。。。

我

爱

你

why guys have PMS too

Dear girls,
 we guys have personal mood swings (PMS) too. when we see you complimenting a stranger partnered to you, we get jealous. when we want to be in a same group as you but you get paired to another guy, yes we get jealous too. when we ignore you, we are pretending and in fact want you to care, want you to initiate and want you to tease us for our childishness. and we love it alright. what you girls love, we guys love it too.

guys love attentive girls.

guys love sensitive girls.

guys love understanding girls.

guys love shy girls that aren't afraid to initiate when she feels something is wrong with her guy.

 we guys are always there at girls' beck and call; but girls, when they are busy, they ignore and dun bother to inform guys, leaving us clueless puzzled - waiting...

some guys take a short time to get angry, some longer, some very very long, but at some point in time, we will. and we want girls to know. yes you girls, appreciate us alright.

Yours sincerely,
guys

Im happy

I have someone in my heart now :) and i love it~

time flies so fast when im with her and she never fails to motivate me for everything and anything. sometimes i just smile out of nowhere, thinking how lucky i am to meet her and how will i ever find other girl as perfect as her? yes, so i told myself, i should not be giving up a chance and let her slip by. and so i did.

i started to do things that bettered my chances in her noticing me, walked a certain path every morning smiling sweetly should she turn to look at me, visited my nccmates at their bench hoping to catch a glimpse of her and finally i got the chance.

it was a class dinner invite from (---) and i agreed, thinking "why not? more people to talk to" and so i went. lol presto, she was there too, waiting for the rest of class invitees to gather. yes, i grinned to myself and my heart swelled. awww, that simple hi to me, a stranger, was oh ever so pleasant~

we walked down towards the mrt, asking around for suggestions to places for dinner and of course, i was oblivious to everything, merely trying to start a conversation with her albeit a bad one given i talked about her rumour (shouldnt have done that)  well, at least we had a conversation :)

finally settled down at the dinner place and i found my butt landing itself to the seat next to her body creating chance for me . heh, so i talked to her about what she thinks of *ahem and ahem* and being love gurus... ohhh and gah, i love chiding and teasing her as to whose tips will succeed~

dinner came, dinner seen, dinner eaten. she went to the toilet and i sneakily went to take her phone to call myself to get her number haha bad meXD  surprisingly she wasnt mad and hey she called me too ahaha, so cute~ should have picked up and replied "moshi moshi, isaac desu!" and afterwards, we walked around outside to ease our stomach plus give private time to ahem* aha, i was walking with leslie choo/ jopeschu? but my eyes were deviating to her...

guess what, her birthday was the next day aft dinner too!! yay, that presented me an opportunity to sms her and initiate a conversation that would lead to my happiness and my change of attitude of mugging and so on...

i love you, my girl. always will and never ends.